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[Nov. 27th, 2009|11:53 am] |
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i suck,
im just a coward,
trying to avoid things,
rather than bringing it up,
and deal with it.
im just keeping it to myself,
telling others but not the right one.
thinking that it will make myself feel better,
but it's not.
im so angry with myself,
why cant i just fucking get this over and done with
so i dont have to waste anymore time thinking about it,
which i already thought about it for months.
damn it,
dragging it wont do the job.
i NEED to get some new piercings.
perhaps i should do naval piercing again. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2009|10:53 am] |
sometimes,
i think im so pampered in my family.
when i was borned,
my bro doesnt get to be carried around in my parents arms,
but i do.
my mum loves us,
and thou my dad doesnt really show it,
but i know he do.
my dad loves me more,
he doesnt cane me.
and i rmb that he wanted to cane me once,
but the cane only hit my pyjamas pants and not my leg.
my bro thought that i really got caned
and was 暗爽ing.
we can get whatever we want,
if its a need,
and abit too pricey,
my parents would pay for it
letting us to just chip in a few hundred bucks,
like a quarter or so.
and my bro treats me extremely well!
ever since he entered NS,
he become richer,
and would spend on me as well if its not too much.
he treats, he buys stuffs for me(when i request).
we can go out together,
tell me who will go out shopping or what with their siblings nowadays?!
i share room with my brother,
and i really miss those time,
when we chatted, complained and share secrets before we go to sleep.
i miss those time lying on my parents' queen-sized bed with my bro watching the tv.
i miss those time going out with my bro and mum, and randomly talking and commenting on a topic, so that you know how's their view about it.
just ytd,
we realise that goat and horse match well. its called the secret friend(according to what i read on the wall in thoe place selling the lucky charms and stuffs in waterloo street).
so that explains our close relationship!
my mum asked if we wanna buy a the clover thing,
and i say nope! we're already very close. :)
so during night, before my mum went to sleep,
she told me that she wish that my future boyfriends or husband would be close to my brother as well. unlike the current one.
that really makes me wanna break up more. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2009|05:57 pm] |
oh gosh.
so many things undone,
but i'm still slacking away..
there's
- modern lit 《雷雨》1500 words
- asian cinema report 1500 words
- chinese media 2500 words
- written media
- asian cinema presentation
due next thur onwards.
sigh!
feel like cutting short hair!
should i? |
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